Fiance away on business trip. I'm insecure.
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|Wed, 06-25-2014 - 10:24pm|
My boyfriend of 2 years is away on a business trip and I'm feeling very insecure. I realize now that the last time he went on a business trip (6 months ago), I've felt the same way.
We normally text throughout the day and don't really have a lot of friends outside of our relationship and pretty much do everything together. So it's a little hard for me when he is away. I've been putting an effort into doing things outside of the relationship over the past month. But still I'm finding it hard not obsessing about what he's doing when he's away. I realize it's a trust issue. I didn't know we had any trust issues until he went away on this trip. Apart from that our relationship is great.
Yesterday he texted me and told me that he was going out after work with a bunch of younger guys, and that he'd rather stay in (he's never been the going out type). He ended up going out. I got a call and a text late night (after I've gone to bed) from a strange number, so I didn't answer. I also got a voice mail from that number. Later when I played the voicemail (in my sleep) it was from my bf - he said that he broke his phone and that the best way to reach him would be by email. This morning he messaged me online and told me he cracked his phone - and when I said I missed him, he said he missed me too and that he was hungover. I haven't heard from him since. I know he's probably at work, but he has his computer with him the whole day! He's very up to date with technology, so I find it hard to believe that he hasn't bought a replacement phone yet. Or even that he hasn't had a chance to send me an email! I can't help obsessing!! I tried calling him once this evening, but the phone rang several times and went to voicemail.
I hate feeling this way. I'm also finding that I've been thinking about my ex while he's away. I hate myself for it. All of a sudden I'm so confused about our entire relationship! What's going on??? I know I should snap out of it! We're getting married in a few months!!! What is wrong with me??