Reprinted from the Daily OM.
The choices we make in thought, word and deed inevitably return to us in kind.
So, this has been here for three days, and I am wondering what people think?
I feel very good about in this marriage which I did not too in my first one. The first time I got married young and at that time I did not know myself what i wanted from a man and my ex-H seemed to me OK. I must say most of the time I felt myself happy but never peaceful and relaxed. That was because of my ex-h personality which I am not sure it was possible to change. He was willing to change or he said he did but his intention never lasted long. Anyway, I have a son from him and he taught me many good things and I was happy once with him so I only keep good memories of that marriage.
Now there is never a day (perhaps an hour) passes when I do not say in my mind how much I love my H. I am only confused a bit that I am still SO very passionate about him. It is 7 years already, I read that passion is different from love and it passes but if I were less passionate!!! Now my Fh is in mission and every time he is away I cannot bear it, I miss him so much already the next day that nothing can stop me waiting for the call or for the mail, whatever I am doing the really thing on my mind is when can I go again and check if there is a letter. And when I open my mail my heart is so racing that sometimes i feel I can faint. The same is when the telephone rings. he might tell me it is only one week but every time he goes I am full of horror as I know I will suffer every minute of it.
But what letters he writes to me!!! I think it might even worth of going away, I have a library of love letters masterpieces.
Well, to be honest, I didnt really look at this thread until today.