The Roller Coaster Relationship
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|Fri, 02-26-2010 - 9:14am|
I am posting here even though there might be a more appropriate board elsewhere because I feel like I can get some good support from folks who might have been there done that.
One day we are planning a future together. The next he is not so sure. He says "I am the one" all the time. But then says he wants to take his time to make sure this time it will work out.
He says he doesnt care where he lives as long as he is with me. Then the next day he doesnt want to move or sell his house. He is all over the place with this. Its like he commits and then says no lets wait and see how things go.
I can see his point. He is unsure. Its tough the second time around when kids are involved. But he has me on this emotional roller coaster for months now. He doubts my level of commitment and joking (well half jokingly) says I am going to dump him.
It seems like he wants to make the commitment but doesnt. I hear "were going to be together for a long time" and "I want you for the rest of my life". But then I also hear "lets wait just to make sure". I never know where I stand.
I am at the point of deciding if I can take this up and down anymore. I am on meds now for depression and stress. I have never been on them before or never felt this way before. Some days I dont want to get out of bed. No energy to work out anymore. Its taking a toll on me. The rest of my life is going well. I have a good paying job and am healthy and my kids and I are doing well. I am happy in every other aspect of life. Just this emotional roller coaster is killing me.