Sometimes ... the kids drive me nuts.
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|Sun, 03-21-2010 - 9:03pm|
So ... my on-again, off-again boyfriend and I are back on :-) Which is good :-) I think, I hope. We'll see how it goes :-) Anyways - can I confess something ...
Sometimes ... his kids drive me nuts. I love them and they're wonderful - but sometimes - I just want some space, you know? Like, I'd love to come home to a quiet house and just chill on my computer on iVillage. I'm so worried that if I marry him - I'm going to have to give up my spontaneity - like ... geez, I feel like running to the store right now - because if I decide that, I've got the kiddos that will want to come with - and what if I decide, gosh, I'd love to just pop in a movie - well there's 3 little kids that want to watch and it's R-rated! Having no kids of my own - I am NOT USED TO THIS!!! The minute I walk through the door I'm attacked by children who want my attention and want this and want that - and ... I'm pooped! I don't want to sound selfish - but I really am used to doing my own thing. Not used to all the demands of having kids - and all at once, it's a bit of a shock.
My boyfriend is 36 and I'm 33 - his kids are 9 (boy), 7 (girl) and 4 (girl). We've been dating 8 months or so. They're sweet kids. I do believe they have all been put into my life to teach me how to love, and to help me grow - but sometimes I just need some SPACE!