what to do with doubt
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|Wed, 04-07-2010 - 10:51pm|
i feel like i have doubts. i feel like these doubts come from my failed marriage of the past. how do you deal with it? and how do you know it is coming from the past and not the current situation?
in my past marriage, I was married to an abusive crack addict / alcoholic. he made many promises that he never intended to fulfill. or never could. whatever. those promises never came true.
I was very patient at first. patient to a fault and patient when i had no evidence to be so. I started going to codependency recovery groups. got my thoughts right and sought a higher power. ...eventually leading to seperation and divorce. i put boundaries in place and stuck to them. i did what i needed to do for my children and myself. it was quite an ordeal and i couldn't have done it without my faith in God.
I've been patient (somewhat) in getting into another serious relationship... mainly i just needed time on my own. needed to build my selfconfidence and heal. It's been 5 years.
Flashing forward... My current boyfriend. He treats me very good. He tells me he loves me everyday, several times a day. I express my boundaries and the things i need... for the most part, he does everything he can to fulfill my requests \ needs \ wants. He has expressed wanting to marry me and while i can see myself marrying him,