BF trying to get into boot camp...wish I could shut off my brain
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|Fri, 05-27-2011 - 1:33pm|
My bf of a year has just gotten his criminal justice degree in college and is now in the process of trying to join the Coast Guard. This would not be my first experience dating a Coastie, but it will be my first experience dealing with having a boyfriend in boot camp. It will also be the first time in a year that I haven't gotten to talk to him almost every day (I fully expect that the one 5-minute phone call he will be allowed to make while he is gone will be to his mother). I am just so anxious...he is not anxious at all, however. He was brought up differently than I was, and to him, this is what he has to do to have a better future. What with the economy and all, and police forces laying people off, this is what he feels he needs to do to build a foundation for his career. (Eventually he does want to be a police officer, but he wants to have some military experience first).
I am trying so hard not to become distraught when we talk about it, but I absolutely hate knowing that at any moment, I could get the call that he's leaving in just a couple of weeks. I'm not ready to lose him for 2 months, but at the same time, I want it over with so we can move on to the next step - getting a place together.