February 6 weekly confessions
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|Sun, 02-06-2011 - 7:41pm|
Guess since it's a new week I'll start a new thread.
I confess that I'm almost to my breaking point of just wanting Nic to take a position where he will deploy again. Friday, yesterday, and today his work schedule has been 4 to midnight. On Friday, he called me at work around 2:30 wanting to know where his gloves were. I hadn't touched his gloves, but of course it was my fault that he couldn't find them. He ended up practically hanging up on me. Now, it wasn't me he was mad at, and when I got off work and purchased him gloves, arriving just in time for his break, he wasn't upset at all, and acted like his normal self. But in that period of getting ready to go to work he is just UNBEARABLE! When he left today, he left without kissing me goodbye or anything, which is highly unusual. Everything is 100% normal and perfect for us except in that 30 minutes to an hour that leads up to him going to work. He is so miserable he can't stand it. And to make it worse, starting this week he's going to be 40 hours a week because one of the other guys is about to leave for Ranger School. So he'll be working mostly midnight to 8 AM shifts for 40 hours a week until that guy comes back from Ranger School. It's better than 4 to midnight, because it means we'll at least get to have dinner together, but it also means I'm going to be sleeping by myself almost every night, while possibly leading up to him being gone for a few months. *sigh*
I also confess that the date we have set is well over a year away and I'm already stressing out about how to plan a wedding from so far away. It's hard trying to figure out how many people will actually travel for our wedding and therefore what we can afford to spend. He's all about it being some extravagant thing and spending around $15K but I'm like no way am I spending that much money on one day!! But, the more stressed out about it I get, the more tempted I am to find someone that will literally do everything for me and then I won't have to worry about putting together all the details from so far away. *sigh again*