Getting second feelings about homecoming...
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|Wed, 12-11-2013 - 11:40pm|
I am writting because I am having new feelings about my husband coming home from Afghanistan. He has been gone for almost 7 months and will be returning within the next few weeks. I dont want to say that I am not happy he is coming home because I am, but I have found myself no longer counting down the days or talking about it like I was.
The reality is setting in, I have my routine down and I have gotten used to my independence. I dont think that he will take that away I am just scared that him coming home will have drastic changes for the both of us. The one thing that I am most scared about is the fact that I told him I was going to loose weight while he was gone but I think I have gained a few pounds rather than lost it. I am so worried that he will notice and remember me as smaller when he left.
Im also worried that going from long distance to being with eachother 24/7 is going to be hard for us to adapt to.
We have been together for almost 10 years and he joined the military after only 1 year of us dating. From then 2005-2009 we were a long distance only couple so I dont think that I am struggling with the distance but rather that is the longest we have gone apart. I guess I just expected myself to be very excited at this point but I am just not having those emotions.
Is there something wrong with me? Am I a bad wife?