Just having one of those days.

Well dh (in Coast Guard) left for some training and evaluation with the Navy in CA last week. I'm having some bad pms hormones flying around, a sore throat that's at least finally going away, my head feels like it's splitting in two, my sister's friend finally left and this house is a mess. To top it all off I found out by way of the Ombudsman (once again my husband was going to tell me later but someone beat him to it. I hate getting the scoop from someone else when he should have told me) that their schedule has been changed so his school he was going to is hanging in the balance. So I might be seeing him in a couple of months or I might be seeing him in 6 months. I think I'm going to lock myself in the bathroom with a pillow and just scream and scream. I'm pissed and nervous and feel so helpless. I hate this feeling sometimes. I hate these times where everything seems like it's unraveling. I know things will be better. I wish I could call my mom and talk to her about it but I don't want to chance it being one of those days where she tells me, "Well you knew this could happen when you said he could join the Coast Guard." Why the hell do people say that? I know what I was getting into but that doesn't negate the feelings of worry and darn hormones that make things seem worse. Ok well I'm going to try the screaming and then I'm going to clean this wreck of a house and see if that makes things better. I might try dh's cell phone and cry on him too since this is all his fault for wanting to be in the Coast Guard. :) I know it's not true but it's worth a nice momentary guilt trip. Thanks for letting me vent.

Kaleolani