2 years later...
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|Wed, 11-06-2013 - 8:37am|
Just when you think you are smooth sailing.....you get a massive smack in the face. I know it sounds dramatic, but really??? I have changed my entire life because I made the huge mistake of having an affair, went through hell, counseling, divorce, then rebuilding with my DH. I get an email Monday from XAP. How he got this email I will never know. He actually tells me about the 2 women he see's now, one with the husband present, the other who flies 5 states every 2 months to see him. Says sex with neither of them is like it was with us, actually says it will never be like that with anyone else again. Doesn't ask a darn personal thing about me although he knows from his sister who lives in the town I do that my father (who I was extremely close to) died, or that I have battled cancer and won. An then.....how much fun we would have going to this couple's town with the wife he screws and have the 4 of us play. That they would love to meet me. Agh!!!!!!!!!
i know.....never should have read the email, didn't know it was him but figured it out quickly and should have stopped!! I am so upset and really shouldn't be. I knew I was a sex object to him. Yet I am a mess. DH is wondering what's wrong. Should I tell him? I have worked so hard earring his trust back, will he think I instigated this somehow?
Any thoughs would be great. And does it ever end? Will I ever live a life free of worrying about him contacting me, and why why would he do that!