Been keeping my resolution!
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|Thu, 01-19-2012 - 12:33pm|
I had resolved to STOP the stupid fishing emails to my xAP. I have succeeded so far. I have gotten through several of my 'trigger' situations. Just by telling myself over and over Do Not Do this. He doesn't want to hear from you. Leave him alone, respect his wishes. For example I was out on my own last night having dinner with a friend.. That is a major trigger for me to want to email him and say I am out on my own, just meet me later for a bit, etc and I woke up feeling so much better about myself that I did NOT try.
I still deal with the thought of the possibility that maybe just maybe this time he would have replied and agreed and I so badly want to see him but there is a MUCH greater possibility that he would ignore and I would feel worse. As much as I think I want him and to go back to that situation, it is the worst thing I could possibly do right now.