in a couple hours..

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Fri, 04-13-2012 - 5:01pm

I have a band rehearsal...and tonight? the crew is planning to really hammer out one of xAP's favorite songs for a gig next weekend. A song he sang in the car..all the fxxing time!

And..this is the day I am NOT leaving for our pre-planned weekend because (ahem) we no longer are a we! But it still hurts a little..and I am really starting to white knuckle it right now.

I told our fearless leader (guitarist) that I would be cutting out early to study for my grad school exam tomorrow. It's true..I will.

But , he knows. He always knows. This guitarist is one of the few people that was a good friend to both of us. That really knows both of us. So, usually he just implies..and pretends not to know. But tonight...his response was laugher and really? Are you in a tiff with xyz? Again?

I replied with a finger gesture.

  The difference between who you are and who you imagine yourself to be, is what you do.

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Fri, 04-13-2012 - 5:41pm

>At one point, I just stopped to take a mental snapshot of us.


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Fri, 04-13-2012 - 6:51pm

"Please, please keep this fond memory etched in your mind because, as we all know, life can turn on a dime and 'poof!'...all gone."

Yeah..I do know..somehow..I had let myself forget.

Indifference and apathy..can be my own worst enemies..no? Can't believe how close I have come to literally throwing it all away..for...for what?

  The difference between who you are and who you imagine yourself to be, is what you do.

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Fri, 04-13-2012 - 8:39pm
It's not a big family pasta moment, : ) but I was at my gym today. The one I couldn't get to for 6 weeks because I was at my pity party. I had a strong, fun workout, and afterwards it dawned on me that I hadn't thought about xap in an hour. I was pretty flippin happy about that. Snapshot taken.
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Fri, 04-13-2012 - 9:54pm

Gypsy,

  The difference between who you are and who you imagine yourself to be, is what you do.

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Fri, 04-13-2012 - 9:58pm
That's a sweet night!!! Yes, your 2-day slackathon must come to an end!! (sarcastically said!!)

I'll run tomorrow if you will?
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Fri, 04-13-2012 - 10:18pm
I need to.run.tomorrow.too ladies. Haven't been.since before my trip. Hit the gym today for an.hour but no cardio.
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Fri, 04-13-2012 - 10:29pm
Well, let's get it done. Meet back here tomorrow.
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Sat, 04-14-2012 - 10:59am
RB,

Look at you go! :)

You had a big trigger day yesterday, and yet, by the end of it - you were able to pick your head up and look around you, and see good things. So give yourself a big high-five for that - that is real progress.

And try to remember that moment, when another trigger or bad moment happens. :)

I'm looking forward to having some of those moments myself this week. Watching a small boy checking out dinosaur bones and airplanes, watching him see the sights in real life that he's only seen in books and on tv, swimming in the cool hotel pool, eating out at new places...and my eyes will be open and watching for those moments.

And then at the end of the week, I get another bonus. I get to see my favorite band in my favorite city with three of my favorite people. I mean - how lucky am I, right?

And, how glad I am to realize that.

I'm glad you had your moment, RB. It sounds like it was a beautiful one.

Hugs,

Kim

    

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Sat, 04-14-2012 - 7:01pm

Kim - wishing you many moments on you vacation.

The rest of you guys? Uhm..I'm a slacker today. No run again...today or tomorrow...and yes..that is putting me in slacker territory:)

  The difference between who you are and who you imagine yourself to be, is what you do.