day 6 and so sad...

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-29-2011
day 6 and so sad...
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Tue, 02-07-2012 - 2:16pm
I miss talking to him, I'm going NC
I miss hearing how much he loved? Me
I miss knowing how his day was, how his hugs and kisses felt...
Ugh....I just miss him, I feel so lonely and lost...

Sometimes love just isn't enough.... NC since 7-30-14

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Registered: 10-26-2010
Tue, 02-07-2012 - 5:46pm
Each day, you will get stronger anf you will think of him less and less. It gets easier, but it is hard work and you have to be willing to embrace the change. Welcome to the board.
~Sunny~
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Registered: 05-23-2003
Tue, 02-07-2012 - 5:58pm
Hi Bk, and welcome.

I see that you also found EAS, I was going to say that you could read through the Healing Library there, to try to find some tips to get you through this first little while.

I won't lie - what you're doing is a hard, hard thing.

But, what you were doing was hard, too. And though NC hurts, there will be an end to that pain, I promise.

Big hugs - you're not alone, and you've found people who understand.

Kim

    

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Registered: 02-01-2011
Tue, 02-07-2012 - 6:05pm
Bk....(((hug ))). Your in the toughest time now. This is rock bottom. Cry, write letters that will never be mailed, and be kind to yourself. N/C works!! Trust in it and the women here who have gone before you. You CAN do this. We are here always. Daisy
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Registered: 11-29-2011
Wed, 02-08-2012 - 5:40am

Thank you for the replies. It is hard, but I'm determined to get through this and let go. I'm very thankful to have found this place, it feels so good to be able to read and post with people who get it, who have gone through exactly what I'm going through, and who can understand and relate.

Sometimes love just isn't enough.... NC since 7-30-14

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Registered: 12-19-2011
Wed, 02-08-2012 - 3:13pm

NC is so, so tough. I/we relapsed several times. I am finally in real and actual NC and I cannot even believe I am going to say this but it finally IS getting better... Whew!! It will for you too, I can say that to others now with certainty!! Stay on this board!

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Registered: 11-29-2011
Wed, 02-08-2012 - 5:18pm
Misselaneous, if you don't mind my asking, how long has it been NC for you?

Sometimes love just isn't enough.... NC since 7-30-14

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Registered: 12-19-2011
Fri, 02-10-2012 - 4:03pm
I saw him last at the end of May. We had some minor contact after that, I kept trying to speak with him... then his very last email reply to me was in September. So, five months of absolutely nothing. It is only recently starting to hurt a little less. It can take a really long time. And I will still say I miss him, wish he'd contact me, etc etc. But I think I am finally in a place where I know I won't reach out first... hopefully. One day at a time for me. It is so so hard...
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Registered: 12-19-2011
Sat, 02-11-2012 - 9:42am
And that doesn't include the ignored emails I'd been sending since then. Who knows if I am blocked or if they were received but it doesn't matter. The very very last one was on Dec 31, and then I resolved to stop for good. Best decision...as much as I squirm and go crazy thinking up things to say, and have to physically stop myself from doing it, at least I have nothing to feel foolish about anymore.
iVillage Member
Registered: 11-29-2011
Sat, 02-11-2012 - 12:40pm
Not sure if you saw my post on was, but I caved and contacted. I have some closure and have now since deleted EVERY possible avenue for contact. I feel like the very first day, but at least I can give up the false hope and move forward towards healing and putting it all behind me

Sometimes love just isn't enough.... NC since 7-30-14

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Registered: 12-19-2011
Sun, 02-12-2012 - 11:32pm

I had not seen the other post. But, I am glad that you have a sense of closure. You can do it this time. It is ok that you made contact. Just stopping is not easy. But the more time and distance, the better. It has to start somewhere, you will do it!! Stay here!

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