feeling..

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feeling..
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Tue, 04-03-2012 - 8:38am

really emotionally battered, bruised and weak right now. Don't know how else to put it

  The difference between who you are and who you imagine yourself to be, is what you do.

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Tue, 04-03-2012 - 10:00am

Smart move, coming here.

Are you committed to running a marathon?

We only miss what could have been. I know I don't miss what it really was.

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Tue, 04-03-2012 - 10:03am

Hi RB.

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Tue, 04-03-2012 - 10:47am
Morning honey,

So here's something: you went through an emotional wringer over the weekend, and then there was the lead-up to that, knowing that he was going to be near and worrying about that. So, yesterday you were probably feeling some relief, that the weekend was over and done with, and that you made it through --

And now, well, welcome to the let-down. Because you were probably running off of adrenaline for a while there - all hepped up, nervous, anxious, stressed - your body and mind were screaming DANGER, DANGER, DANGER! - and now that the immediate moment has passed, as the super strong emotions start to dissipate, this is what's left. The let-down.

And it kind of blows, really. Because you're already tired from feeling all of those strong emotions and being strong and all that - and you're feeling battered and bruised - and everything will hit you twice as hard today, because you're not in the midst of the storm right now. You fought a battle, and now your mind and your body are tired and need a little rest.

So, listen to your mind and your body. Take that little rest. Constant motion is fine, if that's what you need to distract yourself. But, there is something to be said for just being still, and sitting with the emotions, and letting them happen.

Which is where we come in. Because I am kind of lazy, and so that makes me good at sitting, so come on over here and plunk down for a little bit, next to me.

And I will hold your hand, and tell you that you're okay. You are fine. You will be fine. And you will just sit, and just breathe, and I will keep telling you over and over again - and maybe, just maybe, you will start to believe it.

Deal?

xoxoxo

Kim

    

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Tue, 04-03-2012 - 10:59am

Yes. I AM a runner, actually. Runner, swimmer, tennis player. Though the past two years, I have let this slide to the background as I immersed myself in caring for others. So..yes. It is realistic. Easy? no. But realistic. Yes. And sense I am really struggling with reality in letting xAP go...this might just be a good move for me.Seems easier, in a lot of ways. I need to know I can do it.

That said. I do tend to be an overacheiver..to bury myself in accomplishing things and not just letting myself be. It is a fine line that I am still trying to learn.

  The difference between who you are and who you imagine yourself to be, is what you do.

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Tue, 04-03-2012 - 11:03am

Kim

Thankyou..really. Think we must have been typing (as we sit!) at the same time. It was timely reading for me. Do appreciate it. And no constant motion is not what I need. At all. But...well..we have a zillion kids..and businesses, etc. So that..is just life.

  The difference between who you are and who you imagine yourself to be, is what you do.

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Registered: 07-31-2011
Tue, 04-03-2012 - 11:38am
RB, I too struggle with much the same...the letting go. I'm not quite there myself...yet, although doing better than I have done previously. I too am afraid to lose the happiness I feel and when I look at myself wonder whether i'll find that again. For me though I think I only focus on the better times, I tend to block out the bad. That's the part of me that needs work. I know that from messages I kept...only ever the good one's, the image I wanted to portray in my head of what it was like all the time, truth is it wasn't.

Sorry to hear you're having a bad day, get it all out post away and hopefully tomorrow will be better. Hugs.