final day @ work

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Registered: 10-25-2010
final day @ work
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Thu, 01-19-2012 - 10:15pm
Well I'm leaving work in the location where xap is for the last time. Yes it truly feels final & I'm very....very sad. I'm crying all the way home. It feels final & freeing all at the same time. Crazy emotional mess I am! God I hope this pain goes away someday. :(
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Registered: 10-26-2010
Fri, 01-20-2012 - 8:00am
Dishgal, you are doing great!!! It will fade, the scars will heal. You have the power, you are awesome. Keep working through it all one day at a time!!! It is all we can do!
~Sunny~
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Registered: 06-22-2011
Mon, 01-23-2012 - 3:01pm
Hi Dishgal. Congratulations on this huge step. I know it is really, really hard, but I think your healing process is going to skyrocket with this step. It is normal to feel mixed emotions, sweetheart.

Hugs to you,
Lulu
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Registered: 02-01-2011
Mon, 01-23-2012 - 4:04pm

Dish-

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Registered: 10-25-2010
Mon, 01-23-2012 - 4:13pm
Thank you Lulu & Daisy. The weekend was rough especially in the evenings....I woke up crying several times. I locked myself in the bathroom so H couldn't hear. I didn't really start a new job I was working 2 part time jobs so I am working more hours since I left the job where xap was at. I know its for the best but it still hurts. Thanks so much for your thoughts....it made my day better :)
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Registered: 02-01-2011
Mon, 01-23-2012 - 4:54pm
((Big Hug))......I am right there with you. I know everything I am doing is for the best....but the hurt is unbelievable. I don't know what's right or wrong, but I just cry if I need to. This is the first time in my life I am not playing tough girl. Kim told me not too long ago this is MY journey, so there is no right or wrong. Hang in there and know that you are not alone. :) Daisy
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Registered: 05-23-2003
Wed, 01-25-2012 - 11:12am
I hope the week started out well for you honey.

I know it hurts, but it will get better. And be proud of yourself, for taking the big, scary step you did.

Hugs,

Kim

    

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Registered: 06-24-2011
Thu, 01-26-2012 - 12:48pm
Hey DishGal, how is it going? How is your second week of being xAP free?
I gave up trying to be friends with xAP too.
Thinking about you.
Rain.
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Registered: 10-25-2010
Sun, 01-29-2012 - 10:43am
Hi Rain, Thanks for checking on me. I wasn't totally free last week since I had to help hand over this account (where he works) to my replacement. Even though I didn't have to face him I did have to communicate and be the liaison between him and my replacement. It wasn't awful but I had to ignore his jabs via email....one was "K" seems like a wonderful replacement for you I will miss my sometimes bitchy (referring to me) former account rep. Whatever...It has been difficult to move on.....lots of crying and sadness this week. I have to believe next week will be better! I just want this sadness to go away. :-(
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Registered: 06-24-2011
Sun, 01-29-2012 - 10:52pm
You are on the right path to ending this sadness once and for all, doll. I am in the same place as you. We have both been out of our As for a long time but the continued contact was just hurting us.

We are done with that now, right sista?

<3