So i really want to go to
I am not familiar with your specific story, but if this potential run in has the potential to draw you back into the A, don't go.
no i dont drink...and yes he will def be there as he part of the
"i don't want to deny myself some fun just cuz he is going to be there."
Going to an event where you are going to have to constantly be on guard, constantly monitoring where he is and whether or not he is going to talk to you, constantly stressing about what he does or doesn't do... that is NOT fun.
Well, i've decided NOT to go after all...if even seeing him is causing me this much anxiety, i don't need to go and put myself in a position where i will regret it.