Is it finally happening???

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-24-2011
Is it finally happening???
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Fri, 04-20-2012 - 11:36pm
I think I feel, gasp, *peaceful*.

I don't care what he is thinking about me, I'd rather he not message me on my birthday in a few weeks.

I wish him well. I do, truly. He was one of my best friends for 10 years before the A.

But I am starting to be OK with the idea of never seeing or talking to me again.

I'm starting to be OK!!!!

Such an idiot, I am starting to tear up a little because I am just *so relieved*. :) I am starting to be OK!

love and peace to all of you,
Rain <3
iVillage Member
Registered: 06-24-2011
Fri, 04-20-2012 - 11:43pm
Uh, that would be "I am starting to be OK with the idea of never seeing or talking to *him* again".

Just to be clear. I plan on continuing to talk.to myself plenty :)
Community Leader
Registered: 05-23-2003
Sat, 04-21-2012 - 12:42am
Oh phew.

I wondered if you'd suddenly developed some super powers, and could turn yourself invisible. :)

You're not an idiot for tearing up about this, sweet pea.

It's a milestone - and a big one, at that. *This* is what you've been working towards for the last months - *this* feeling of peace. And now you have it - and you recognize it for what it is.

Maybe it will come and go for a bit - maybe it won't stay around consistently just yet. But you know how it feels, now. And more importantly -- you know that you CAN feel it.

Good deal, honey.

Smooches,

Kim

    

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-24-2011
Sat, 04-21-2012 - 12:52am
Yeah, I said just that in a similar post over on EAS. Even.if I just feel this peace for a day or two now.....at least I know it is possible now.

And it is a good, good feeling. One I wish for other enders that are struggling.

Are you still on vacay sweetling?
Community Leader
Registered: 05-23-2003
Mon, 04-23-2012 - 10:23pm
Vacay is officially over. Well, this one is, I have a few more coming, but not until summer. :)

I hope your peace lasts and lasts, sweet pea.

xoxoxo

Kim