Wow, wow, wow.
Okay, first - go read this:
(If you don't know who Brene Brown is yet - google her.
I just finished reading her book, "The Gifts of Imperfection" and am now reading this one. They are both great books and I highly recommend them.
It took me three tires to read it all the way through. I'm ADD what can I say...too many shiny things distracted me.
Whether you think you can or you think you can't you are probably right. A parrot can repeat what it has learned but the mark of true intelligence is applying what is learned.