I'm Having an Affair
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|Tue, 09-10-2013 - 3:24pm|
Well, this is my first time posting to this board. I'm not sure why I am posting. I guess I just want to see what others have experienced during their affairs. A little background on me. I will be 30 this October and married my husband shortly before my 25th birthday. We just recently celebrated our 4th wedding anniversary. I have been seeing another man for about a month now. We met when we were both out with friends one night and there was an intense, immediate connection. He is not married. He has an ex-wife and two children with her. My husband and I do not have children, however, he does have an ex-wife and a child with her (they share joint custody). This man did not pursue me, rather I pursued him. About two weeks, before we began seeing one another, my husband and I had had a conversation about exploring the idea of an open relationship. But we were in the process of moving so we put the conversation on the back burner until we were settled into our new house. Then I met this guy and well I have been seeing him and talking to him since. We have not slept together, but it is only a matter of time. I am definitely emotionally involved with this man.
My husband is a good man but I fell out of love with him a little over a year ago. I told him this and we worked on some of our issues but in the end I reasoned that there aren't a whole lot of nice guys out there and I don't feel like going through a divorce so we stayed together. I am no longer physically attracted to my husband either. He looks exactly the same as when we married but I have just lost all physical attraction to him, this I have not told him, as it would hurt me very badly if my spouse told me this.
I don't feel guilty about the affair, I feel guilty that I don't feel guilty, make sense? I am extremely happy and want to badly to be with this other guy. I want my husband to find out. And honestly, I think he knows, he just isn't ready for that conversation.