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|Wed, 12-11-2013 - 3:44pm|
Short story: met a single guy on AM one year ago. I'm married but don't love my husband.
Fell hard for this single guy, but he only wanted sex ad ego boost from me. We've been no contact 4 times: 1 month, 2 months, 4 months, and last one 2 months. ALways me who contacted him again, and he's always there.
His profile: separated 4 years ago, 1 child, He's active in 5 dating sites daily.
I've tried to forget him, but I always contact him again. This last time, the day of Thanksgiving. We finally met this Monday. When I arrived to his home, I noticed he smelled of alcohol (11 am). Then he started to talk about his ex. We talked for about 1 hour. He hates her, he says she's evil. Then we had sex. At first I got a little scared. He was not forceful with me, but he grabbed my hands and I almost couldn't move for a couple seconds. I said "wait" to him 3 times until he eventually stop. He put my hands in his chest to show me his hearth was racing. Then it was all very natural, like always.
After sex we talked for about 1 hour, cuddling, until I had to run. That night he sent me a text asking how I was, which I never replied. That was 48 hours ago. I know he is dating other women at the moment, and I also realized he mistook dates and people when we were talking. He said things that didn't correlate with things he told me in the past, but maybe it was me I didn't understand him...
I care about him and I want him to be happy. I'm feeling horrible I haven't replied his text. I actually don't know why I'm doing this. I wish he'd love as I loved him, or at least have some kind of feelings, but everytime I go no contact, he doesn't care at all, and never contacts me back until I do so.
i just don't know what to do. I like the feeling of excitement he provides me and the fact hes a "bad guy". I just don't know why I'm not contacting him, it's so unusual of me. I always contacted him after sex and we fought because he always dissapeared. I don't know, I'm a mess.