Slept with my BestFriends Husband..Now I'm Late
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|Wed, 11-13-2013 - 5:43pm|
I don't know where to start because I am honestly embarrased/disgusted with myself and my actions. I did the worst thing a person could do I betrayed someone that i love deeply. I slept with my bestfriends husband. It was stupid and we decided we would never discuss it again. However, there's a slight problem now I'm late. We were completely safe and I am hoping its just stress from my stupid actions, but if its not I am not sure what I will do. We all are very close from our families to our whole group of friends and because of that I have no one to talk to about this. I could never tell one friend without putting them in a situation where they'd be keeping a secret from our friend. He was more than clear about how he wanted nothing to do with a baby, but I do not believe in abortion. I know I shouldn't jump the gun, but truth is I'm scared to take the test because I am not sure what my reaction will be. A part of me would be thrilled to be pregnant, but this is not how I wanted it. I am not ready to be the woman judged and pegged as the homewrecker and moreso now because I know that he will not be there to be me, nor am I ready to be the person to lie about who my baby daddy is.
I messed up to the point of no return and no one should pitty me because I am an adult who made a concious decision, however, I am lost and scared and sadly alone because I can't talk to anyone without putting them in this horrible lie filled circle.
I hope someone can shed some light on me because i'm screwed.