Weird reaction to a maybe affair?

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Registered: 07-09-2014
Weird reaction to a maybe affair?
Wed, 07-09-2014 - 3:55pm

Hi!  I'm new to the boards and want to say thanks for reading.

First off I want to say, I'm very happy in my marriage.  Ww have been married 5 years with 2 small children.  I love my husband very much and we have a great relationship although maybe sometime sexually boring bc well we have babies.  

Recently my husband has been traveling more frequently for work and I'm aware that he meets all types of people on the road.  After a recent trip where he was gone for 2 weeks I accidently noticed some texts on his phone that hinted towards some sort of something with another women while he was gone.  

I dug a little bit but not further than just checking his email I know the password to and his phone one other time (he had deleted the messages at that point) but nothing was concrete. i did find a ashley madison account that he had created but there was nothing on there.

I'm not the type to get instantly angry, I need time to mull things over in my brain.  And after thinking about it I thought i would confront him about it, but I haven't.  The more I think about it, the less I care.

Isn't that awful?!  The most anger I can feel about it is that he has a social life that I'm missing being home with two littles.  I'm so jealous, not that he did or might have had sex with someone else, but that he got to sit and have dinner with another adult with no babies hanging on him.  

I know I should be mad and I did tell him how I felt he had so much freedom, but without mentioning what I knew about the woman.  

Have I lost my mind?  Not normal right?