Why can't I remember anything???
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|Fri, 03-29-2013 - 11:54am|
My husband found some videos and pictures online of a woman having sex with different men, and the woman (women?) in question just so happens to look, act, talk, and sound just like I do. She even moves in the exact same way I do. My husband now has "hard evidence" of my affairs that apparrently he's been suspecting all along. He only wants one thing: the names of the people i've been sleeping with, and why i did it in the first place. (ok, so TWO things).
There's just one itty-bitty little problem with that... I have no recollection whatsoever of having ever slept with anyone else. ever. (dh and i have been together since i was 16.) i may have CONSIDERED having affairs in the past (idk why, though) but as far as i can remember, I never HAVE. Of course it's pretty hard to believe my innocence, myself, after seeing all these videos and pictures floating around.
I just started seing a therapist, hoping to have SOME help, but I don't see her until monday and at this rate, I've been contemplating suicide a LOT today. (and this affair issue, has been going on for about a year.)
I'm trying to figure out how i can be guilty, but have no memory whatsoever at the exact same time .(Because, I don't even know anymore if i'm as innocent as I think.) my husband claims that i know everything and that i'm the worst type of slut out there. that includes his sister, who is open on the many, MANY partners she has had. but i'm worse. a LOT worse, because i refuse to admit to anything.
has anyone else had an issue like this???