IMHO I wouldnt go because like Ollie said you are not moving forward in your healing and this would make you go backwards.
Now if it were a few years from now and all was well then I would say you both would be healed and can co parent and all.
Right now its way too fresh and the pain is there so I wouldnt want anymore of this emotional pain................
Stay home and have fun on your own... If you wanted could you take the girls somewhere without ex???
Hugs Sweet! I have to agree with music. She is a divorce attorney and I am sure she has seen a lot as far as alimony etc.
In my own case my exh never paid a dime what he was court ordered to do. He ended up having a massive heart attack, a quad by-pass and lost his job. You just can't get blood out of a stone. My sister's exh has not paid her child support in over a year and got himself messed up with drugs and is losing his business. Could we take these guys back to court? Yes, but as an attorney told me what would be the result? We would spend more money and still may not see anything coming from our ex's. They have fallen down financially and in every way. To continue would just cause US more pain and distress. My point here is although it would be great if we all could expect the ex's to follow through it is all too common for that not to happen. I know you are going to say--not my stbxh. My sister said the same thing, her ex had his own construction business and was successful. It is great that you are in school because when you have financial independence that will bring you wonderful peace of mind. I learned from this experience, I will always be able to take care of myself financially. I am remarried to a wonderful man but I still will always have a plan b and financial independence.
IMHO the longer you drag it out the longer you will not heal and be in pain. You said "sorta like I accept all this & life goes on." Unfortunately that is what you are faced with. That is what I was faced with and I did just that. I have no control of what anyone else does, including my exh. I let it go and my life went on. It went on beautifully I might add! When he was out of the picture my life jumped forward with leaps and bounds. Your life can and will go on and how wonderful and successful it is is up to you!
My opinion, don't go to NY with your H in tow. Take your children, show them a happy, independent mother and woman who does not put up with what your stbx is dishing out! Your H will do what he is going to do whether you know about it or not. Why torture yourself?
IMHO until you reach a point of indifference about what, where or who your stbxh is doing you are holding yourself back. Fill your life with rebuilding your future, and your children. Let go of this jerk!
I think it's good that you are studying for a new career. I'm very surprised your atty told you not to get a job--I'm an atty & I wouldn't give anyone that advice, but since your'e studying anyway. the reason i say this is that it's not like alimony can't be changed--usually alimony is either based on the length of your marriage or what's called rehabilitative alimony, which is for a term of years, like they expect you to be finished with your school & get a job in 2 yrs, so he'd pay alimony for that time. But they can also attribute income to you if you are currently able to work. then if you do get a job after the divorce, he can always go back to court to get the alimony reduced anyway, so it's not like you can pull the wool over his eyes. does he have a lawyer too? Unless his lawyer is really stupid, he'll be able to figure this out. the only thing that dragging the divorce out will get you is more legal bills and more stress, but if he wants it to go through fast, at least you'll have the upper hand to negotiate for what you want.
when you said that you want to monitor them, what for? You already know they are having an affair, so just assume they are still carrying on.