betrayed

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Registered: 01-25-2010
betrayed
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Mon, 01-25-2010 - 5:43pm

When I found my husband at this slut home. I never felt such rage in my life. Then I find out from the neighbor's he comes there when he is supposed to be working.

NOw I am going through a range of emotions, which I find I cannot control. I feel rage, hurt (beyond description), guilt, no confidence, distrust, and any other negative emotion known to man, including denial.

Does anyone else feel this way too?

And the really sad , pathetic part is I still want to believe in him.
Everytime I do, I find out that I shouldn't have.

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Registered: 04-10-2011
In reply to: vergelding
Sun, 04-10-2011 - 10:33am
I hate to be the bearer of bad news- but my head has always said- once a cheater, always a cheater and now my heart has learned that the hard way. After a 10 year marriage in which I know for sure he had 3 affairs I'm kicking myself in the a$$ for enduring the pain for all those years. But I truly loved him and made a vow before god. Don't get me wrong- I'm 6 mos out and the wound still seeps pain, fear, list love, betrayal. It won't be easy- but don't leave yourself open for it to happen again!!