Emotional Day

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Registered: 05-31-2012
Emotional Day
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Wed, 06-06-2012 - 8:19am

I called my husband this morning as I usually do on my way to work.  He seemed crabby and I asked him why?  He asked me "What did you delete off my compter?"  I told him just the files of the fat naked chicks and porn videos.  He wouldn't respond.  The phone was silent, so i said "fine, you don't want to talk, goodbye."

He sends me a text stating after a fun night last night (went out to dinner with my brother, niece & brother in law and nephew visiting from CA) he gets on the computer to find things I deleted in the trash bin.  (I must have forgotten to empty it!)  He's upset that I still don't trust him.  REALLY?

Now I'm at work, the computers are down and I can't stop crying! It's a good thing my boss is on vacation!  I told him that I'm tired of "pretending" I'm o.k., happy as a clam, when I'm NOT!  I cry more than he knows because he thinks I should be over this by now!  How can I get over the fact he screwed around with a so called friend of mine and they were texting one another as I was having a night out with her!!!!  I'm going to scream!

I just can't take this feeling anymore!  I can't stand my life right now.  Everything is just upside down and my husband is more concerned with..."what about my feelings?"  I'm not the one who screwed around with a married woman who was supposed to be my friend! :0(

I'm sorry...I needed to vent.  I know the world doesn't revolve around "me," and there are a lot of you suffering out there.  I just need a retreat somewhere to get my head together.  This should be  an interesting therapy session today at 4p.m.  I'm going to look like the psycho...again.  :smileysad:

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Registered: 05-31-2012
Re: Emotional Day
Sun, 06-10-2012 - 11:24am

It's nice to know we are all feeling the same way!  I could very easily kick her fat butt, but unfortunately then I would have to deal with her husband going after my husband.  Believe me, my husband is very capable of taking care of himself but despite him shredding my heart into a million pieces, my head messed up, and my anger issues to name a few....I would NEVER want anything to happen to him.  I don't trust him, but I do love him. :smileyfrustrated: