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|Wed, 06-06-2012 - 8:19am|
I called my husband this morning as I usually do on my way to work. He seemed crabby and I asked him why? He asked me "What did you delete off my compter?" I told him just the files of the fat naked chicks and porn videos. He wouldn't respond. The phone was silent, so i said "fine, you don't want to talk, goodbye."
He sends me a text stating after a fun night last night (went out to dinner with my brother, niece & brother in law and nephew visiting from CA) he gets on the computer to find things I deleted in the trash bin. (I must have forgotten to empty it!) He's upset that I still don't trust him. REALLY?
Now I'm at work, the computers are down and I can't stop crying! It's a good thing my boss is on vacation! I told him that I'm tired of "pretending" I'm o.k., happy as a clam, when I'm NOT! I cry more than he knows because he thinks I should be over this by now! How can I get over the fact he screwed around with a so called friend of mine and they were texting one another as I was having a night out with her!!!! I'm going to scream!
I just can't take this feeling anymore! I can't stand my life right now. Everything is just upside down and my husband is more concerned with..."what about my feelings?" I'm not the one who screwed around with a married woman who was supposed to be my friend! :0(
I'm sorry...I needed to vent. I know the world doesn't revolve around "me," and there are a lot of you suffering out there. I just need a retreat somewhere to get my head together. This should be an interesting therapy session today at 4p.m. I'm going to look like the psycho...again.