I don't even know where to begin.
I have 2 fears with that--he will decide that he does not want to keep our family intact, or I will decide that"
Take a deep breathe... and read what you just wrote.
Your gut was speaking to you and that is how you knew that he was doing something. You felt it in his behavior
He sent me this email after he left this morning, which I find to be completely bogus now:
For what it's worth, I'm sorry for hurting and lying to you. You deservebetter than that. I will start packing when I get home tonight, move itover in the morning, and talk it over with
Ok at least some acknowledgement about his wrong doings. I agree not to put to much meaning to it.
This is what I would say.
I don't want a husband who does not know what he wants.
I want a husband that loves me and only me. I want him to look at me with love. I want a husband that puts me first and our marriage first.
Honey I just read your other thread down below about the Guys search.
fivediamondwife you rock!!!! You should be a cl.
pbandj, you deserve to be loved, respected and cherished don't accept anything less!! Fivediamond is right on the money!
FiveDiamondWife, WOW! Where did you find that from! Bravo! I wish I had your hutspa! I did the exact opposite when I found out! I called him on it, I have proof of emails and phone calls, texted ow and emailed texts and her responses to my gmail account. Followed him to an event she was present at and popped in to say hi. Made all of us quite uncomfortable but I had to remind her I existed. Told H he was on probation and if things didn't turn around he could leave this summer. I'm getting all ducks in a row an making copies for the D if necessary. All the while playing the forgiving wife. In a way I am forgiving if it's real. He says it is. We will see. The kids now know there is trouble and they are worried poor dears. They will survive both ways I will too. I love what you said.
Pband,I share your pain. I am only in this 5-6 weeks and it is h*ll.Stay on the boards. The rollercoaster ride of emotions has just begun. I wish you strength and courage.
"Do unto others as you would have done to you"
My H also went back to the affair when the dust settled after dday#1. I did not know about the continuing affair for over a year until I finally allowed my gut to tell me what I probably already knew deep down.