I'm tired!

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Registered: 03-22-2009
I'm tired!
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Thu, 03-26-2009 - 4:17pm

Oh man! I'm like a maniac poster today... 2 in one day! This is the only place I'm able to vent and be open about what's going on in my relationship so I'm going a little crazy getting it all out here. AND all of you are so supportive.


I need to vent. I'm just feeling exhausted. This situation is exhausting.


*I'm tired of pretending like I don't know anything


*I'm tired of smiling and laughing at his jokes


*I'm tired of hurting


*I'm tired of getting all dressed up and pretty so he'll "see what he's missing out on"


*I'm tired of wondering where he is when he's running 20 seconds late


I'm just so tired! Physically tired. This emotional thing has taken a physical toll on my body.


I've been trying to do things for myself and keep myself busy. I buried myself in a good book. Have kept up my exercise and even added a little bit to my workout (just so I can stay out of the house for a few extra minutes).


Only problem is, every time I'm out, I'm dying to be back home so I can keep an eye on him and make sure that he's not sending texts or calling his work "friend."

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-08-2008
Thu, 03-26-2009 - 4:39pm

Neverguessed,


iVillage Member
Registered: 10-11-2008
Thu, 03-26-2009 - 6:09pm

Midge


Agree with you wholeheartedly.

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Registered: 01-07-2009
Thu, 03-26-2009 - 10:02pm

Your tired? ...................It takes a LONG time, the recovery, the rebuilding. I thought I would ABSOLUTELY DIE at 4 months since dday! Well, here it is 13 months and I'm still alive!

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Registered: 02-04-2009
Fri, 03-27-2009 - 9:59am

I too can relate to what you're feeling.

"If something cannot go on forever, it will stop."  Herb Stein