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|Thu, 03-26-2009 - 4:17pm|
Oh man! I'm like a maniac poster today... 2 in one day! This is the only place I'm able to vent and be open about what's going on in my relationship so I'm going a little crazy getting it all out here. AND all of you are so supportive.
I need to vent. I'm just feeling exhausted. This situation is exhausting.
*I'm tired of pretending like I don't know anything
*I'm tired of smiling and laughing at his jokes
*I'm tired of hurting
*I'm tired of getting all dressed up and pretty so he'll "see what he's missing out on"
*I'm tired of wondering where he is when he's running 20 seconds late
I'm just so tired! Physically tired. This emotional thing has taken a physical toll on my body.
I've been trying to do things for myself and keep myself busy. I buried myself in a good book. Have kept up my exercise and even added a little bit to my workout (just so I can stay out of the house for a few extra minutes).
Only problem is, every time I'm out, I'm dying to be back home so I can keep an eye on him and make sure that he's not sending texts or calling his work "friend."