maxed out and tired-venting

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Registered: 11-02-2003
maxed out and tired-venting
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Thu, 02-25-2010 - 11:03pm
k, so i am 6 months int rebuilding from the 2nd affair, and about 1.5 yrs from the other..
i am so tired of h bitching that he doesn't like MY friend, and My family...WTF...like he is of anyone who can judge anyone....
yes my friends have told me to leave him, yes, my family and his family told me i should leave him...yet he doesn't like what other people have to say about him... dude...take a look in a mirror and see what you have done! you wife beating, alcoholic, lying dead beat- son a of bitch! and realize you are not the f-ing super star you think you are- you are a $hi+head and a rotten person. so don't hate people for seeing you for the lack of a person that you claim to be. and stop trying to control me, and manipulate how you want to be see you....you ruined it on your own and i am not going to stop having a life cus u r too embarrassed to deal with the reality of things.
i am tired of your f-ups, i have my own stuff that i am dealing with and i need a partner to support me, not to leach off of me.
so chil out and let me be and deal with the real reasons why people think the way they thin about you!
ugh...
sorry i just had to vent and get things out
actions speak louder than words...
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Registered: 08-31-2009
Thu, 02-25-2010 - 11:23pm

looks like you finally see him for the man he is and NOT for the man you want him to be.

now, and i care when i ask this question WHY DO YOU THINK THIS IS THE BEST YOU DESERVE?????????

he is not the best you deserve, you know that right?

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Registered: 11-02-2003
Thu, 02-25-2010 - 11:31pm
true...right now...daycare...
if i can just make it through till when my youngest starts kindergarten i will be ok... and i can make the current situation work. for once in my life i am going to use somebody like they have used me.
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Registered: 08-31-2009
Thu, 02-25-2010 - 11:44pm

please know that i speak from my heart when i say DO NOT ALLOW ALL THAT HE is not TO RUB OFF ON YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

do not allow yourself to change because you are hurting so badly right now. you are not a vengeful person, i somehow believe that. rather than thinking of it as using him, think of it in a more positive way.

now i am NOT nuts, but i believe that what we send out comes back. does that make any sense?? so rather than send out a message of using him, send out a message of "i am making a good solid plan for me and my child(ren). i am going to be the best person i can be to me, for me. putting yourself first in a loving way.

if i could recommend a book i am reading which is most helpful you can heal your life' by louise l hay.

very powerful book filled with powerful messages that are helping me to see things from a different perspective. i am seeing and caring about me, for the first time in a long time - and in a good way.