Need Guidance please help

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Registered: 02-13-2011
Need Guidance please help
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Sun, 02-13-2011 - 10:53am

II found out that I got cheated on about 2 weeks ago. Because of the devastation and shock I let him go on the same day. After some days he has called and texted me asking for forgiveness and he told me that he wants me back and he would rebuild the love and trust that we once had. One day I've decided to forgive him just because I in my mind and heart and soul I have forgiven him and I wanted to let go of the past so that I am able to live on my own future. When we talked I've never seen him with so much passion telling me how he does not want anybody but me and that he will do anything and everything for me. I decided to give him one chance to prove it. for the last two weeks we've had our highs and lows and it's definitely been a rollercoaster ride. It's not only because he did wrong, it's also because my moods have played a trick on me. One day I'll trust him and then the next I'll have my walls up. We both Love each other and he shows me that. I on the other end will show him that but it's so when my mind plays tricks on me and I'm an emotional wreck. I do want to know how to find a solution. I would love to get counseling, but unfortunately the funds does not permit it. I want to get better so that I am able to be with him without having to go through intense psychological turmoil. I would like to know from everyone's previous experiences and how they made it work. I don't want to punish him for his actions because that's not who I am, but for some reason it turns out that way. Please I need everyone's help and guidance. Give me inspiration to get through this!

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-22-1999
Sun, 02-13-2011 - 4:44pm

Well, I am only about 5 weeks past finding out about H's PA.

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Registered: 09-09-2008
Mon, 02-14-2011 - 4:49pm

Sorry I can't reply directly, all week I do not see the "reply" box so I have to reply to somebody else's post.