So disgusted don't know how to go on

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Registered: 06-30-2005
So disgusted don't know how to go on
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Mon, 08-22-2011 - 3:12am

Anna

Hi, I feel myself on the verge of explosion - it is killing me and I am 6,5 months pregnant now.

My story is long and complicated. I am with my current man for 7 years. 2 years ago, we had our first child. However, he came to this world stillbirth after 39 weeks long waiting. I was totally crushed. Problems started also between my and my then husband. This happened in Sept. 2009. In Feb., 2010, we divorced.

After that however, we tried to get back together and in July 2010, we moved back together again as a couple only. (not married). In March, 2011, I got pregnant with our 2nd child who is due in Nov.

Just yesterday, I accidently went into his skype account (it was left unclosed from last night) and found out that he had an internet affair with a girl for 7 months to the point that they exposed to each other nacked and had type internet sex. What I could see was from Dec. 2009 to May 2010. From what I could see, they had earlier contact not recorded in skype. She even called in at the time when Skype was on.

This came as like a shocking bomb. I couldn't believe a man who claims he cared about family, after 7 years relationship with me, 1 month after we loss our child, started chatting with another woman. And by the time the divorce paper was signed 5 months later, he was having internet sex with her while at the same time trying to making it up with me!

All I had in mind was to get back to him and to get pregnant again so we can continue as a family. Now I feel nothing but cheated and stuck. I don't know what to do but just want to leave him since the contents make me throwing up.

What to do now? He didn't know I know this at this moment and he got angry at me not talking to him and behaving angry. I am torn to tell him and then leave him because I can not see myself kisssing him or touching him, EVER again!

Can you let me know what you think please!!!!

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Registered: 07-13-2011
Mon, 08-22-2011 - 5:19pm
Anna- I sent you a priavte message after your post on other board. Did you get?
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Registered: 06-30-2005
Tue, 08-23-2011 - 3:47am

No I didn't. Could you send it again to gchinese@hotmail.com ? Thanks