Where is he??
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|Thu, 04-23-2009 - 12:48pm|
All I've done for the past week is wonder where he is at EVERY moment. I called him on his way home from work on Monday. He cut the call a little short and I thought, "I bet he's calling OW." I checked his phone this morning and didn't see any calls to her... but he could have erased them.
If I call him and he doesn't answer I automatically assume the worst. It's awful. I get scared and I start to shake. I feel a sense of panic until he finally calls back or comes home.
I don't know what to do. I've been driven to tears on a daily basis. I'll be doing something unrelated and not even thinking about it and all the sudden I'll start crying. (While I'm driving, standing in line at the store, putting on makeup, reading a book... I can't escape it.)
I never thought my life would end up like this. I never thought my marriage would be a scary place.
What do I do? Do I tell him how I feel? I'm afraid if I tell him, it will push him over the edge and he'll want to get a divorce- I feel like I'm hanging on by a thread.