Yup....Fell Once Again

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Registered: 05-31-2012
Yup....Fell Once Again
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Wed, 08-01-2012 - 1:17pm

GRrrrrrrrr...

O.k.....I'm Psycho! Things are getting better with each passing day.  Finally got my heavy bag up and I have a name for it:  "The D*@#** Bag!"  Last Night was my first punching session at it, and I have decided to do this EVERY DAY!  This at least helps release some of my anger that may suddenly spark.  I even have a You Tube Song list for my bashing sessions.

Well, Last night I sent an email to the OW (a two liner) and I wish I hadn't.  It doesn't make me the better person.  I DON'T want to be like her!  I don't know what came over me....anger, sadness, etc....All I can see are those freakin' sexual pictures sent to one another via cell phone.  So, I basically said..."WOW!  Blinded By Cellulite.  Just wondering if you showed your husband the pictures you sent to MY HUSBAND?  Hope you have seeked help for your obesity since then.  Toodles."  **YIKES!**  O.k.... Now I have to stay away from the computer at home, any glass of wine while alone, etc.....

Second thinking possibly going on an anti depressant, but I don't want the effects of it either.  I know because I was on them 10 years ago for about 2 years dealing with a lot of medical trauma in my life.  I have my hands in the air right now....Don't know what to do.  Frustrated. :smileyfrustrated:

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Tue, 08-07-2012 - 11:40am
OH GOD!!! I don't want to offend anyone here! Believe me...I could lose 10 lbs myself! I truly do believe someone becomes more attractive with their good qualities, but honestly I should have seen her "bad qualities" when all she ever did was bad mouth her best friend about how much of a H bag she was. Bad judgement on my end, because I would never respond to anything she said about her. Funny though, she talked a lot about her best friend, yet she seems to be the home wrecker and biggest whore of them all!
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Tue, 08-07-2012 - 11:41am
Yup...that's certainly the truth!! I like nice eyes and a nice smile. :0)
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Tue, 08-07-2012 - 1:40pm

Yup, I always said "fat and ugly don't matter as long as the OW has nice eyes and teeth that aren't rotting " lol

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Thu, 08-09-2012 - 12:43pm
**LOL** Thanks for the laugh!!!
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Thu, 08-09-2012 - 12:50pm
Massage is a wonderful way to de-stress yourself. One of my friends is a massage therapist and it certainly helps so much!!!!

You have to do the things in life that allow you to gain strength, process, mourn & heal. It sounds like you are on the right path. :0)

Time certainly is a healer, but facing certain holidays, special occasions for the 1st time is still very difficult. But I do look forward to eventually putting it behind me and creating new memories and starting fresh. I just wish my heart would smile completely again. Because this is the toughest part.

Thank you for the positive energy...Right Back At Ya!!!

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