15 months since DDay

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-09-2010
15 months since DDay
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Wed, 11-16-2011 - 7:12am

Hello,

I thought I'd come here to let you know about what became of my marriage since DDay.

Well, I think of myself as single, my marriage is only on paper, to be honest. We are still leading a normal family life, nothing bad, but we aren't lovers any longer. Yes, we do have sex sometimes, once a month or so. It entirely depends on my needs, to be honest, and my hormones aren't in very good shape so I feel I need sex only one or two days per month, which doesn't mean I want sex with my husband. When in the mood I'd love to have a lover, but not my husband. In fact he is very often getting on my nerves, simple things he cannot seem to do right can make me explode inside. There's just friendship but clearly no love.

It is sad and I really hoped I'd be wrong when I noticed in October last year that my love for him had disappeared. I thought it might be only temporal, but the void remains.

II do hope for everybody here that you will make it with your partners, that true love will come around some day again, but as I have seen it doesn't kill you if you are not so lucky. One gets used to almost everything.

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-15-2008
Fri, 11-18-2011 - 7:41am

pjf,

iVillage Member
Registered: 11-09-2010
Fri, 11-18-2011 - 2:43am

Thank you, Ollie.

I don't think I'm sad, only disillusioned and still quite angry sometimes. My husband still tries connecting with me, he touches my arm, tries to hug me but I'm winding out

iVillage Member
Registered: 02-15-2008
Thu, 11-17-2011 - 7:17am

Hugs pjf!