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|Wed, 12-29-2010 - 12:35pm|
2.5 years since D-Day and my H and I have a wonderful M. It was rough for a while and I took my H through h3ll for a while. He has totally become a great H and shown remorse. He considers his XAP as the worse mistake of his life and he is disgusted by her and by who he was during his A. I have also become indifferent towards the XOW recently. Before, I envisioned scratching her eyeballs out. I had all of these revenge fantasies about her where I made her pay for the pain I suffered because I felt like she just got away with murder. She was a murderer in fact, she murdered that ugly man my H was when he was in the A. She actually got the worse part of a wonderful man and brought out the worse in him. I bring out the best in him. He was telling me on Christmas day how thankful he was that I stayed with him and forgave him. He said to me that he can't believe that he almost lost a wonderful, intelligent, beautiful and honest W for a low down woman who sleeps with MM. He told me how much he respects me because I have been faithful to him for twenty years and even stood by him when he made such a horrific mistake. I told him that he taught me a valuable lesson also. He taught me that I can live without him and I will make the decision to extract him from my life if he ever strays again. Before his A, I honestly thought we were so inter-twined that there was no room for a third party.
Back to the revenge of the XOW. My revenge on her is greater than anything I could have ever done to her. Their A was exposed to everyone where they worked. She was dumped on D-Day and thrown out like yesterday's garbage and will never hear from my H again. She tried to woe my H by pulling all of her dirty little tricks out of her ho-bag and it got her absolutely nowhere. My H is