Why can't i get angry?
Oh gosh Budderfliey, I wish I could just come over right now and give you the biggest hug ever. You know, I have been following your story and I am really beginning to think your H has some very troubling issues that he is simply and sadly not able to work out without some IC help.
It almost seems that he feels he does not deserve to have a peaceful happy life. Just when he is on the edge of getting there, he starts this same pattern again and again. First, masking his issues with alcohol, then going to OW to let her make him feel better, which always backfires and makes things ten times worse.
I do not believe for a minute that he has any love for OW. She is just a tool for him to bring himself down into the pit time after time. She must surely see that by now, but she may enjoy feeling that he "needs" her and if he keeps needing her, he will go to her.
He needs help, you need peace. I am so so sorry, you did nothing to deserve any of this. Know that you will be ok no matter what.
I've been watching some of your posts and your husband is just horrible to you. He is sick.
"If something cannot go on forever, it will stop."
"If something cannot go on forever, it will stop." Herb Stein
As I posted last night, he pulled into the driveway.
I think posting this in this folder - rebuilding -makes perfect sense.
I cannot express my thanks enough for the support that I find here on this site.