Filed for divorce! I'm free!

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Filed for divorce! I'm free!
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Tue, 04-11-2006 - 4:28pm

Well I'm not free yet, but I'm well on my way. It's hard to describe how I'm feeling right now. I have been so sad about this, but right now I am feeling so happy. I feel happy to free of this man and this stagnant marriage and the hurt that he has caused. I wrote a long blog about it all if you feel so inclined to read. I will be back here for sure, but I wanted to let you all know how much I appreciate your support and your being there for me these last few weeks. You have really helped me through. Thank you so much and good luck to all of you.


 BabyFruit Ticker

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Tue, 04-11-2006 - 4:47pm
Summer, I hope that everything works out for you.
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Wed, 04-12-2006 - 2:38pm

Congratulations! I wish you the very very best! I am so stuck in my emotional roller coaster right now, I think I'm heading in the same direction. Somehow I believe it couldn't be any worse being on our own, we are strong, we are loved and we deserve to be loved. Love should not hurt, ever.

Keep us posted and know you are in my thoughts!
Jennifer in CT

Jennifer

Proud Mom of Travis (15) and Mandi (10)

and our pets, Sully the Dog and Till

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Wed, 04-12-2006 - 6:33pm

I am doing so well that it's scaring me... just wondering when I'm going to come crashing down again.


Summer

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Wed, 04-12-2006 - 7:25pm

I just read part of your blog and its amazing how much strength you have. I saw a lawyer and had the paperwork all filled out so I know the feeling of getting on with your life. Its empowering and scary. In my case, when I was ready to file I warned H bc I didn't want it to be a surprise and he asked me to please not return them yet. He ended up finally breaking up with OW and started seriously rebuilding. At the time, I felt I could have went either way, I just needed a path! I was so tired and wanted a resolution so I could go on with life. I didn't realize how much of the resentment doesn't go away. Anger is very powerful and its work to keep it at bay.

Good luck to you. I have a strong feeling you will do very well for yourself and your baby girl.

hugs,
hannah

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Tue, 04-18-2006 - 5:55pm
Summer why did you take it off your blog?
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Tue, 04-18-2006 - 9:20pm

I put it under private. I was worried that stbx might somehow get ahold of it, and I didn't want it to be used against me.


Summer

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Tue, 04-18-2006 - 9:32pm

Summer, That was very smart of you to do. It is hard to tell when they are like this just how far they will go. With you taking the steps you have I am sure he is going to start to get angry that he has lost "control".

I must say I am very proud of you for your ability to be so strong. I know it is hard but moving forward when they want us to sit and wait is the only way to save ourself. The sad part is once we see we can save ourselfs we do start and wonder why we "needed" them? I keep having to drive that point home with my H. I don't need him I am making a choice to be with him not out of need. I can be alone! I have done it and will do it again if I have too..

Also your little girl is just so cute.. I miss that age so much! Mine are 11 and 13 now. They grow up so fast. He is missing so much time that he will never be able to get back.. How sad is it that anyone could be so selfish as to miss out on something so special!

Hugs Irene

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Tue, 04-18-2006 - 11:32pm

Thanks Irene. I know what you mean... how he could be selfish I don't know. What is so sad is that the other day I was showing our daughter pictures of people... my mom, my best friend, myself, my cat, my mom's cat... she got so excited in recognizing each person and pet... but when I showed her H's picture, she had no reaction. She doesn't even know him. I cried because it broke my heart so much. But as far as the blog goes, I felt like I had to watch my back... I wonder about posting here... but I doubt that he would think to go here, and if he did oh well I guess! And I found out that someone that works under him was reading my blog... which it's fine if they know he is a jerk. But I didn't want to start too much trouble that way. So the really emotional stuff I keep protected. If any of you want to be on my protected list and have xanga... just comment on one of my public posts, and I will add you.


Summer

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Wed, 04-19-2006 - 7:20am
Ohhhh smart move. I was thinking maybe you were ashamed of your up and down rollercoaster feelings and I wanted you to know it was sooo normal and to not be ashamed but that makes more sense. LOL I'm always overthinking things. LOL