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|Thu, 12-29-2005 - 10:24am|
Don't you hate when you post something and it get's deleted... Here I go again
I was hoping for some advice from rebuilders or anyone else that has had to heal from this crap....
For the first time in our almost 7mths of rebuilding I have been feeling stable. I have mentioned this before but what I am wondering is, what to expect?
Will this feeling of stability stick around or is it pretty likely that I will probably go thru another stage of rage and loneliness?
Am I more at the acceptance stage? I am afraid to get to hopeful and when or if I regress I want to be warned and not be disaappointed in myself if that should happen so I am asking my friends here what to expect.
We have had a good month and when I say that there has been lots of talking, crying, yelling (from me), but the best part is I feel stable. I feel our relationship is more stable and we are improving immensely. I have gained lots of insight this month. If you dissect our rebuilding I feel that the first 3mths were very honeymoonish with anger and rage, the last 3mths were full of anger and rage and now this a calm stability feeling. I even had thoughts of forgiveness on my mind, although I am not ready "yet" to grant forgiveness. I can not believe that I even had those thoughts. I know I shouldn't hold this granting like a high and mighty person but it's very important to me to reach that goal, someday and when I do it will be special to me. The realistic side says those thoughts are just creeping because of the holidays. But anyways.........
Can I ask where you found yourself at 6/7 mths and what to expect? Thank you and Happy Holidays, Tea