Hey Shocked. There's several Hannah's here so I'm not sure if I'm the one you're asking about but I'll answer anyway!
I'm doing good. I haven't been here in a while but wanted to check in since today is my 1 year anniversary of rebuilding. What a year it was! I like coming back and help others if I can. This board and counseling has been my life boat.
I hope you're doing ok.
Thanks - I'm so glad I was helpful. If I can help anyone go through this, I feel like I'm turning a negative thing into a positive one. Experience is a great teacher isn't it! Too bad its the hard, painful way to learn.
Dday was in February and rebuilding started one year ago today. Dday anniv itself wasn't hard but the period after was bad. I think I experienced a low during what would have been the fencesitting period last year. Strange huh. I fell into a funk and thought it would go away like it always had, but it didn't. In April I started my therapy again and that really helped. I asked her all the questions I was dying to throw at my H - questions I'd gone over many times with him before but always looking for a new angle. I can tell I'm having problems when I resort to the questions again. And then I started thinking about OW again so I know I needed help.
After some therapy sessions I got through it. I'm so glad I have that outlet and I'm sure H appreciates it as well. I'm much better now and a lot more confident now than I've been since all this began. That feels good.
How are you doing??
Hello hannah! I definately can tell what you mean about the funk. I just had my own during my last dday and anniversary. I believe I am starting to finally come out of it. But I won't speak to soon in case I jinx it.
So glad to read your feeling better. Take care. I wonder what 2 year anniversary will be like;) hugs, Tea