I feel so alone :(

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-27-2009
I feel so alone :(
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Mon, 08-10-2009 - 5:40am

I just feel so hurt and alone right now.


I'm sat here wishing my H was different but he isn't. I'm sat here thinking i want more but I'm not getting it. I'm sat here thinking I deserve better but I'm scared to look for it. Mostly I'm sat here wishing til heart breaks that things were different.


I can see my H doing exactly the same thing as he did with his last marriage (they split up because of her insecurities - partly for- makes me think he just isn't the emotionally supportive type - thats what the counseller said) They split up and he buried himself in a fog of drinking alone and being on the internet.


Now here he is again doing exactly the same thing! We play an online game together its basically a flirting game and there are girls on there that he talks to and my gut instinct is that he talks about us as if we were history never mentioning that we are trying to rebuild my H is charming and funny and all those things that a girl would want but its a smoke screen

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-07-2007
Tue, 08-11-2009 - 3:33pm

I am so sorry that you are feeling alone.

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-27-2009
Tue, 08-11-2009 - 4:41pm

Thank you for listening again and your wisdom I feel like you understand.


I feel less alone today I guess we all have those days!


I am so so close with my mum and she is my biggest support and my best friend but she has had 3 sisters die from various cancers and she is of the mindset when she hears the word cancer its a death sentence.

iVillage Member
Registered: 08-11-2009
Thu, 08-13-2009 - 11:59am
Dear Irish Lady, I am so sorry to hear your pain. I am not in a position to give advice. I logged on yesterday to try to find help to cope with what has just happened in my life. Reading these stories of heartache, betrayal... at least have helped me feel that I am not alone. I too can not tell my closest friends or family about my problem. I have one friend who I told and who has been wonderful and supportive. It helps to at least have one person to talk to. It also has helped to hear advise here from people who have already walked down this road. I hope you can find what you need here. At least that is what I am hoping for!