I feel so alone :(
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|Mon, 08-10-2009 - 5:40am|
I just feel so hurt and alone right now.
I'm sat here wishing my H was different but he isn't. I'm sat here thinking i want more but I'm not getting it. I'm sat here thinking I deserve better but I'm scared to look for it. Mostly I'm sat here wishing til heart breaks that things were different.
I can see my H doing exactly the same thing as he did with his last marriage (they split up because of her insecurities - partly for- makes me think he just isn't the emotionally supportive type - thats what the counseller said) They split up and he buried himself in a fog of drinking alone and being on the internet.
Now here he is again doing exactly the same thing! We play an online game together its basically a flirting game and there are girls on there that he talks to and my gut instinct is that he talks about us as if we were history never mentioning that we are trying to rebuild my H is charming and funny and all those things that a girl would want but its a smoke screen