Rebuilding going well, but feeling blue
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|Mon, 01-30-2006 - 3:03pm|
I'm 4 months since Dday, and maybe I'm expecting too much from myself, but I could use some reassurance please. Our rebuilding is going well and I seem to feel really good for about a week at a time now, but some days I just wake up depressed and I can't seem to snap out of it. I really don't know what triggered my ill mood yesterday, but I ended up rehashing the "nobody loves me" crap, and my insecurities have resurfaced.
Is this pretty normal at this stage? I really hate these pity parties I seem to put on myself, and I keep asking myself "how is this helping you get better," but no matter how much positive thinking I do, I can't seem to snap out of it! I feel so bad for not keeping these feelings under control because I end up going through it with my H, who is very patient, but I feel it's unfair to keep questioning his love for me when he's reassured me many times that he does love me. I end up ruining a good day with my insecurities. I try to journal the bad feelings, but sometimes that doesn't help. Any advice is appreciated. Thanks.