Rebuilding...but lost faith. Help.

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Rebuilding...but lost faith. Help.
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Fri, 03-02-2012 - 3:54am

So I didn't know where to vent, and it seems that there are no longer the Christian boards on ivillage that there once were.

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Fri, 03-02-2012 - 11:40am

(((au_fan)))

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Registered: 02-22-1999
Mon, 03-05-2012 - 2:05pm
I think that if Mother Teresa herself had a crisis of faith we are all entitled to have them. After my D-day I wound up having a major arthritis attack and we had just closed on our new house 2 weeks prior to that day after looking forever for one to buy. I was stressed to max (although obviously not anything as scary as a cancer scare.) Anyways, I was always like "why?" And yes, I was very angry because I had just gotten over his EA during the last couple years. Why keep forgiving if I was going to be getting smacked in the face all the time?

Anyways, I kind of look at bad things as opportunities for grace to happen. Your cancer scare was an opportunity for grace in allowing your husband the opportunity to actually realize what he stood to lose in a VERY obvious way. And it kind of in a way showed you a side of your husband that you weren't even sure was still there ( At least I imagine.)

Honestly, when I get mad or when I know of someone who is having anger with God issues, I suggest they simply pray for a change of heart. And if all else fails, remember God can take your anger. Give it to him, it is an honest emotion. Then when you get it all out of your system ask him to help you heal. Then let him help you.

Peace to you. And I will say a prayer for a change of heart for you.
Elmosmom
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Registered: 02-22-1999
Sat, 03-10-2012 - 9:15pm
Hi au_fan. Just thinking of you and hope you are feeling God s graces today.
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Tue, 03-13-2012 - 2:43pm
Hi. I've been quite conflicted as well. I couldn't figure why yesterday I was especially conflicted and realized that today is actually 2 months to the day since D-Day.

I've been feeling quite the failure. Failure at my marriage, failure at parenting. We lost our first son 17 years ago this month at 11 months old and then we proceeded to raise 3 mentally unstable siblings. After the last one flew the coop at 18 is when things fell apart in our marriage. He convinced himself that I didn't love him for whatever reasons.

I won't get in to all that now, but even when I'm feeling less than faithful I turn to the Bible and I most especially like to listen to contemporary Christian music. We aren't the only ones with crosses to bear and sometimes we have to realize that there are actually those out there in worse situations than we are.

I agree with what both Ollie and elmosmom said. And I am keeping you in my prayers. May His grace surround you and remind you that He has no plans to harm you, but to prosper you. Blessings to you and yours.

-T-
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Registered: 04-12-2012
Thu, 04-12-2012 - 3:13pm

When I read your story, it reminded me much of my situation.