Do you also still cry about it?
"If something cannot go on forever, it will stop." Herb Stein
I totally understand and yes, I still cry.
It's ALMOST a year and a half for me and sometimes I do cry.
i still cry,i still ask myself how.i still ask myself why.i still ask myself when will it end - the pain.i still ask myself who am i?i still ask myself who is he, really?
i still ask myself will it ever stop.
I guess not nearly as often as before, but when the dam breaks it's pretty damp.
In 20 years, my spouse saw me allow one sob escape my throat the night my father died. My brothers and I were taught by an old-fashioned Father to suck it up. Being a man is about enduring whatever is thrown at you. Even after my spouse asked for the divorce I didn't cry. The moment she told me about the affair, I could feel it coming and within 30 seconds, I started to cry, and I could not stop for months. The fact is that I found it odd--this noise coming from my throat. I seriously had to actually learn how to cry. I didn't know any other way to release these emotions.
And even now I still don't know how to regain my previously held composure. I think I've just abandoned it. I don't cry audibly anymore but I do have to cary sunglasses now in case I have an episode.
5 kids ages 16-10, D Day: August, 2008
What I'm doing to rebuild: Therapy, Books, Exercise, Forgiveness.
ThomasWe have five kids. Our D-Day was in August, 2008.