1 month mark...reality kicks in.
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| Fri, 03-14-2008 - 8:03am |
Hello.
So I woke up today feeling sad because I realized that today is officially 1 month since he broke up with me. It didn't help that the night before, I was having a dream where I was going to go see him and that his friends were telling me that he might change his mind and take me back. Talk about feeling hopeful in the dream and then waking up to the cold hard reality. I also realized that our relationship is really over -- not that I didn't believe it when he first told me -- but even more so now because the realization that I would be flying out to see him during spring break (long distance relationship) if we were still together makes it even harder. Knowing that he could call if he wanted to but doesn't want me anymore makes it even harder. Knowing I am all alone makes it even harder. It is odd how I can look back at us and even though the heart is still raw, "us" as a couple and a concept seems so far away...it feels more like a dream than something that really ever happened.
For once since the breakup, I just laid in bed after waking up from that dream and just felt my sadness, acknowledged it, respected it, and said to myself you have to try to keep going...try to move on. And so even for the little motivation I gave myself, I am proud.
I hope everyone is feeling better.
Sarah

Hi Sarah,
You should be proud of yourself.....it's those small pep talks that get us through the day!!