18 months later and I still miss her.
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| Sat, 07-24-2004 - 4:08pm |
I can still remember her smell, her beautiful skin and the fine, blonde hairs that contrasted against her tan that would curl around at the small of her back where I used to plant kisses.
My friends and family are still baffled at this torch that I'm carrying for her. It's never really talked about but they know. They know all too well. When the subject actually does come up, they scratch and shake their heads in disbelief. "You still thinkin' about her? Get over it man!" Hell yeah, I am. And the fact is that I always will.
I still believe that one day, the phone's going to ring and it'll be her voice on the other end. I can dream, can't I?
Some are posting on here about "the one." She was my "one." She will be my "one" - forever. I miss her very much but I do wish her happiness in whatever she's doing right now. I want God to watch over her and maybe one day, bring her back into my life, where I know she belongs. And, if it never does happen, I will always carry the memory of her with me because I love her; always have and always will.
In the meantime, I have moved on as best I can. Some might chuckle and say, "Yeah, right." But, all is fine and dandy in my life - with that one exception.

It's been like this for almost 3 years. He made such a huge impact on me, i simply can't forget him. I wish him happiness in his life as i'm pretty sure he's with someone else now too. I haven't met anyone that I have that strong connection or bond with and if all things in life happen for a reason, perhaps the heavens above will bring that special someone into my life some day.
He was the love of my life and nothing i say, nothing i do, can change that. I know that i will always love him, always miss him, always think about him...why life would bring someone into my life to make me feel this way i dont know. There are soooo many constant reminders of him and just when i feel that i'm doing ok...bam!
It's ok to feel the way you do...just as long as you keep your heart and eyes open for what new and exciting can enter into your life. If your heart and eyes are closed, you are going to miss perhaps the next love of your life. I know its hard...but we have to believe that all things in life do happen for a reason...that there is someone else for both of us out there, better suited for us.
Good luck and i sure do know what your going through. I'm sure he doesnt even think about me anymore...or wonder about me...and in some small way, that helps me push away what i feel about him and makes me even more determined to keep him in the past, so i'm healthy emotionally to move on with someone else when the time is right.
Deborah