2 months and missing him alot...again
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| Mon, 02-25-2008 - 10:22pm |
My boyfriend and I had a huge fight on new years eve and he decided to move out on new years day after a 3.5 yr relationship. I havent talked to him since. Last week I had some minor surgery which made me stay in my house for the past 6 days. I think being here and not going to work or being able to go out has made it really hard for me to keep my mind busy. I just keep thinking about him. And before this, while I did miss him, I found it much easier to get on with my days. I even feel like I am getting over the whole situation but am missing him again. Its kinda weird though. I'm not really missing what we had together, I'm missing him... like as a person. It just seems different than how I missed him earlier during the breakup. We were friends for about 6 years before we started dating, so I think that I am missing his personality and friendship more than anything right now. He doesn't want to talk to me (I'm guessing) since I haven't heard from him since he left and that is just really hard to accept. How can you be best friend with someone for 10 years and be in a relationship for 3.5 yrs and just kick them out of your life.
It's horrible to think, but I really believe that his mom keeps telling him to just let it go. He left our house and moved back to his mom's house. He has left before and always been back after about a week. She has always treated him like her little boy and was devastated when he left to live with me. He has always acted like a mama's boy and it does make me feel better to think that that is what I'm missing out on right now.. a lifetime of being with a "man" who will always do what his mother says.
I guess I just needed to rant a little. Thanks in advance for reading.
| Mon, 02-25-2008 - 10:33pm |
