26 Days and Counting

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Registered: 07-31-2007
26 Days and Counting
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Wed, 08-29-2007 - 11:07am

Is it pathetic that I am still counting the number of days that I havn't contacted him? This weekend is going to be very rough for me. This is the last weekend of the summer and therefore the last weekend I will be 4 blocks away from him. Then I will be atleast an hour and a half away. Not to mention, this Saturday is his birthday. My mind is in all sorts of places right now and it is driving me crazy. I saw him in the bar on saturday and walked right by him without saying anything and left proceeded to leave the bar. That was a big step for me. But now I am dreading this weekend just because I am scared I will never see him again and I miss our friendship more than anything. I want so badly to send him a letter or call him on his birthday and I know that is not what I should do. But in the back of my head I am thinking "if I am never going to see him again then why force myself not to call and just say happy birthday if that will make me feel better."

Then again I don't even know what is going to make me feel better at this point. We have been broken up since June 4 and I am still completely heartbroken over it. I feel so pathetic that I still care so much and he doesn't seem to care at all...

Ughh sorry about the vent session but I am going crazy.

Helpppppppp

Meg

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Registered: 02-05-2007
Wed, 08-29-2007 - 5:31pm
Meg, it's not pathetic. It's a milestone.