3 weeks!! and counting..................

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Registered: 08-04-2004
3 weeks!! and counting..................
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Tue, 08-24-2004 - 8:23pm
I'm doing the NC thing. Things are picking up at work. I'm going out.

My social calendar is full, and to everyone around me, I am doing just fine.

But, when I come home at night , I'm still crying.

I asked him not to call me, and he hasn't. I still want to call him (but I won't).

Why is it that "the disappointed" always want to reach out to the ones who hurt us?

I know he's moved on. According to him, "he doesn't miss anybody". He lacks most human emotions, so this was just another experience to him.

I would love to adopt the idea that "there's someone better" in my future, but in reality there's no guarantee. I had been hurt very badly by my ex- before him. I took my time getting to know this one. I asked all the right questions, then decided to take a chance with him. After he grew tired of wearing his mask, he switched on me. At this point, I'd rather be alone, than trust someone with my heart again.

Just venting! I'll be so happy when I'm over this.

I wish someone could give me the exact date & time, because this hurts like hell!

-Izuri

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Registered: 05-09-2003
Tue, 08-24-2004 - 8:54pm
A BIG hug for you Izuri... you're not alone. It's been 2 1/2 weeks for me. Yesterday was the first day I didn't cry or choke up once. Today has sucked though... I've been packing tonight, came across a card he gave me about 3 months ago, and am asking myself "Where did his feelings go in such a short period of time?" He says he's hurting, and I've seen him crying, but I know it's not nearly as painful as how I feel.

Hang in there... we'll both be happy again, with someone who treats us much better. I know it! :-)

"Without music, life is a journey through the desert"...