4 years *gone* and i cry everyday
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4 years *gone* and i cry everyday
| Tue, 06-06-2006 - 2:49am |
this really sucks. 4 years *since high school* all of a sudden fights everyday. i started dating someone else for a month hoping i can get over him. but i didn't i couldn't and i ended up hurting that someone unintentionally. i can't get over my ex *4years is long time* ... i still cry, i see his myspace with picture of her (vice-versa) .. he looks so happy with her. we both lose our virginity to each other after the 3rd year.. i cry everytime i see there pictures and comments.. they leave each other comments and some intimate pictures comments stuff. it hurts me to see this. i cry a lot. i've tried everything to forgive him and want him back. i can't move on. it's killing me, im so alone. a lot of times i wish he'll come back to me, but something tells me that he's really over me now and he couldn't get enough of his new gf. they only been together for a month now but still, i dated someone else for a month and i could take it anymore. he's the one i loved. im so afraid to trust anyone, im so scared. i feel like Crap, no one cares. im tired of pretending im tough. i sometimes wish he'll come back and realize what he's doing, what he've done. but something tells me he'll never realize co'z he's too blind. i sometimes think, am i suppose to live like this? am i suppose to suffer like. this. i just wanna get away. my heart is shattered and will never be put back in pieces. i'll never be whole again. i feel like im a loser and maybe i'll just disppear someday, oneday, very soon. i wanna vanish. i just wish im gone forever. i love him
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| Tue, 06-06-2006 - 5:27pm |
(((HUGS))) and you're not a loser, nor are you alone. There are tons of folks here to listen to you and support you and give advice as we are able. You have to give yourself time to heal before trying a new relationship, since a new relationship is NOT a solution for heartbreak. Stop looking at the myspace page and causing yourself further hurt. He's not worth it, and you deserve more than that.
| Wed, 06-07-2006 - 1:00am |
Take it one day at a time. At first, you have to consciously decide not to look at the myspace page. Then, decide to say goodbye to him on your own terms. If you have any of his crap lying around, toss it. If you can't bear to toss the items, gather them all together and pack them into a box--and put the box under your bed or wherever you can't see it. Reading self-help books helps too. Everything is a decision at first--a decision to move on. Later, it won't be a decision anymore. You deserve someone who appreciates you (even though you might not feel like it--he is out there). Don't turn bitter and untrusting--it's not healthy--and it's not a good look. Best of luck.
| Thu, 06-08-2006 - 4:06am |
thank you, i wish i have a friend or anyone like you. im still depress, im trying to fight, i really am, its just talking so long for me to fully heal. god bless
| Thu, 06-08-2006 - 4:08am |
thank you. i think i'll do that "box of memories" like you said. your an angel, thank you for caring.. god bless you
