6 mts- Too long to be completely healed?
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| Wed, 01-17-2007 - 4:20pm |
The hurt just comes in around and around and each time I think I am healing and over it, something will happen to set me back.
I broke up with my ex because I was a bit of a rebound girlfriend and he was not ready to be in a relationship.. but I still cared for him alot. He was my first real relationship so I've been quite naive. We broke up end of last June and I was feeling a lot better by August.. In September we started school again together (Same program with all the same classes, all the same friends) I made a point to keep my distance from him, but when I found out he started seeing another girl, I COMPLETELY BROKE DOWN. All my "healing" faded to nothing and I had to start the whole process again. Why would he lie to me and why wouldn't he come back to me if he was ready to be in a relationship when he told me nothing was wrong with our relationship?.. I cut him more and more out of my life but he would always be upset if I ignored him and I would always go back to giving a "friendship" a try. I realize it hurts me more to be his friend and to know he's with someone else.. I still think about him quite alot. It feels like for as long as I have to see him each day of my life, he will not be out of my mind until I find someone else to "replace" his spot in my thoughts. It's not that I expect us to get back together but he is a constant reminder of a "failure" and how lonely I feel without him and makes me miss the happiness we had together. I have many friends here at college but everyone has "someone" so it just makes me feel even more alone.
Is 6 mts too long to be taking to heal? I am upset that he still has some control over my emotions. I think it's mostly when I'm feeling lonely that hang on to him and try to "be friends". Does anyone else have these feelings?

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